RSS Feed (xml)Does God think sometimes that I'm a robot and won't feel any pain?
Six months ago He took my mother away from me. That was the most painful part of my life. That was the first time I felt hurt and lost. I felt like my world completely stop when Mama left me without saying goodbye. I was regretful after Mama left coz I wasn't able to do the things that I promised to her..I thought she will always be there and it didn't come to my mind that one day she will left me and she will be gone forever. I admit that until now I can't be able to let go Mama...and am still grieving for my loss and yet God took away another person who is important in my life again. Just earlier I received a text message from my sister, asking me to call coz there was an emergency...My brother was brought to the hospital and was unconscious...got three text message from her asking me to call and when I'm about to call them I received the 4th text message but did not able to read it since I was dialing their number already...when she answered the phone and said hello..I asked them what's wrong ang felt deaf for a minute when she says that our eldest brother's gone.
My brother is gone and how should I react to it? How should I react to that kind of news? I am not over with I have been through with Mama yet....that was just six months ago when I went back to Philippines to attend her burial and now here's another family member who left without saying goodbye again. My eldest brother who stand like our second mother to us. How could God do this to my family? I know it is not right to question Him but in times like this that I'm lost and in pain...I can't help myself but question Him. Where did my prayers go? Is he measuring my faith in Him? If this is His way to measure my faith ...well this is just too much for me to handle. I know that I'm not in the position to question Him coz as they say that everything happens for reason and God has a purpose for taking away the people I love but can you blame me if I acted this way?
Six months ago He took my mother away from me. That was the most painful part of my life. That was the first time I felt hurt and lost. I felt like my world completely stop when Mama left me without saying goodbye. I was regretful after Mama left coz I wasn't able to do the things that I promised to her..I thought she will always be there and it didn't come to my mind that one day she will left me and she will be gone forever. I admit that until now I can't be able to let go Mama...and am still grieving for my loss and yet God took away another person who is important in my life again. Just earlier I received a text message from my sister, asking me to call coz there was an emergency...My brother was brought to the hospital and was unconscious...got three text message from her asking me to call and when I'm about to call them I received the 4th text message but did not able to read it since I was dialing their number already...when she answered the phone and said hello..I asked them what's wrong ang felt deaf for a minute when she says that our eldest brother's gone.
My brother is gone and how should I react to it? How should I react to that kind of news? I am not over with I have been through with Mama yet....that was just six months ago when I went back to Philippines to attend her burial and now here's another family member who left without saying goodbye again. My eldest brother who stand like our second mother to us. How could God do this to my family? I know it is not right to question Him but in times like this that I'm lost and in pain...I can't help myself but question Him. Where did my prayers go? Is he measuring my faith in Him? If this is His way to measure my faith ...well this is just too much for me to handle. I know that I'm not in the position to question Him coz as they say that everything happens for reason and God has a purpose for taking away the people I love but can you blame me if I acted this way?
