RSS Feed (xml)Ten years ago (2000), I thought that the world was about to end. Year 1992 and I was in second grade when I heard the rumors that the world is going to end in the year 2000. I cried going home from School for one reason, I don't want to die early because I want to get married first and have kids before I die. My Mother told me that no one can tell when the world is going to crash. Of course I was happy afterwards knowing that I will be able to grow up, get married and have kids. That was my only dream at that time. As I grown older, I became more ambitious and realized what I wanted to do with my life, what I wanted to become and whom I wanted to marry. I never thought that growing up is difficult. You've learned to take responsibilities, to know the consequences of your actions and decisions. You've learn to make a mistake and be sorry afterwards, also you will learn to solve your own problems. When I look back to the year 1992, it seems that those days were the simplest days in my life. You have no responsibilities at all, no worries, no problems and no pains.
When I lose my Mother one and a half year ago, that's when I realized how I wanted to go back my childhood days. My childhood days was priceless, I have a mother who took care of me, preparing my meal, waking me up in the morning, scold me when I made a mistake, massage my back when I can't sleep from coughing, making me feel that I am being loved by her. I miss those days. If only I could turn back time, I will surely want to feel those moments again. But now all I can do is to cherish of those old memories here in my heart. Year 1992, 2000 to 2009....lots of events that happened in my life. I got married and take some responsibilities, I lose my mother and my brother. I felt pain, I was lost for awhile and now I'm back...trying to move on, look forward for the year ahead of me. I'm trying to pick up the pieces and put them together so I will be whole again.
As I bid farewell for the year 2009, I'm trying to say goodbye to my frustrations and pains. I hope, year 2010 will be a better year for me. Still, going for the extra mile on 2010.
Happy New Year to all!
