RSS Feed (xml)I am here again....I think it became my habit now to post when I am troubled inside. I think a lot these days....to the point that it gave me a headache.
My family back home, I felt so sorry for them. I wanted to help them in every way I could...I wanted to give them what they need, to provide them everything and make their life a lil bit easier....but I don't have the ability to do so. Even if I wanted to but I can't. I can't because I don't have anything....if only I have a lil bit of extra money in me right now..I will never hesitate to help them. I will help them right away without a doubt...but what can I do? I, myself needs it very badly too....I have responsibilities that needed to be taken care of. You know what? everytime, they asked for help and I can't help them right away, it breaks my heart into pieces. It troubled me, I have no peace of mind....because what I wanted to do is to give to them everything they need.
My heart is aching.....I felt so sad....I felt hopeless..I am frustrated for everything that happens right now. When will I be able to do everything for them? When will I be able to give them everything that they need? When will I be able to make their life a lil bit easier? I don't wish to be rich, I just wish I have extra money right now so, I could help them. I'm not asking for too much, am I?
I hope that tomorrow when I wake up, everything will be okay...if not tomorrow then maybe next day? or next next next day?....Just hope that one day, I will wake up and my family back home are doing great......that's all I want...that's my happiness.
